arrhhxz!! haviing an gastiice piian riight nOw.. =( oso donno whhy.. maybe yesterdayy de world dayy never eatt bahhxz.. tthan thiis afternoon eatt so many thhiing.. haiixz iif ii know tatt, ii won'tt eatt tthiis afthernoon, tthan ii won'tt have gatiice piian nOww!!.. sad*..
ermmm boriing..!! liisten tO ][qiing tiian from jay][ hmmm quitte niice.. lol`ss.. justt noww seeiing channel U aboutt de marry show.. hen gan tong!!.. =( derriick and some superstar ppl siinging forever love.. zhen de hen gan tong..
where all my frenxii gO..? whyy nO one onliine..?? =( haiixz.. suan lehhxz.. gastiice verii piian gOiing to lyi on bed and liisten ][qiing tiian][ and seeiing comiise..!! bye''
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8:43 PM
This is a story about a girl who fell in love with herbest friend..
Jin and I are bestfrens.. We do anything that bestfrens do...
One day, i realised that i love him...
So i decided to confess this feeling to him one night where we camped with other friends...
He said yes, he would be my boyfriend..
So we went on like other couple's life does.Watchmovie, walk in the park, eat together, go to beach....
but life's not fun as when we were still bestfrens...
He also does not talk much, or act like we are bestfriend,
being close and sharing everything...
Forme, he is not a suitable or a loving boyfriend ...
but i kept quiet ..
But since the day he became my boyfriend,
he would give me a small teddy bear every single day...
At firsti thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder why he would give me this...
One day, i was walking alone at a park.
Then i sawJin talking to another girl.
I walked towards himand i overheard him saying "i love u' to the girl.
I was really angry and i ran home because Jin never told me he love me all the time we had been a coupleThen,
at midnight that day, he came over to myhouse and i opened the door. He just passed me the teddybear that he used to give me everyday and said "Sorry because i did not give you this today."I was really angry and i shouted at him,
"Why are you always giving me this crap?
All i want to hear from you is...
"I love you"
that's it, isit too hard???"Jin kept quiet.
He took my hand and placed the teddybear on my palm and left..
I threw the teddy bear into my cupboard.
The next day, Jin asked me out. We meet at busstop near my house..
I walked there and then he just gave me a big teddy bear.
My anger was still in high position, and i threw the teddy to the middle of the road.
He kept quiet and then he went to the middle of the road and picked the teddy up.
He did not realisea truck was coming towards him.
''I shouted at him not to pick it up''
and he was about look at me,
and...........................*Bang*."JIN!!!!!!" I shouted...
the next minute he was lying on the road, covered with blood.
He was sent to the hospital but it was too late...
i had lost him...forever.... and ever
After attending his funeral, i went back home and i hugged all the teddy bear he had given me since the day we became a couple...
i counted the teddybear sone by one...1...2....3...101...230....300..364...
and the last teddybear that he gave, which was covered with his blood,was the 365th...
it had been a year since we became couple...
i squeezed the teddy bear with my tears flowing ....suddenly...
*I love you~**
I love you~*
*I love you~*
I was shocked.. i looked at the teddies... and i tookone of it, and tried pressing his tummy..
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
I tried each and every teddy bear he had given me...
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................
And the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gave me, Is queezed his big tummy...
*felicia, today is our very first anniversary being a couple after a year...
i'll always love you,yesterday,today, and forever........ I love you....*
I dropped the teddy bear........
I never realised that Jin had actually told me those words..
every single day.... till today...I slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to theteddy's ear..
"i love you too, Jin..and i always did........"
--the end of de sad storty--
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11:28 AM
ermmm blog agaiin.. lol`s.. tOdayy abiit happii lorxz.. nOtt realii siian haahaa``..
wake up att 6.25 tthan call frenxii tell hiim ii wake up lehhxz.. jiiu go bath.. aroundd 7 jiiu gO schh.. lol`ss. meet my frenxii 7 lol`ss. haahaa``..
ermmm reachh schh aroundd 8.10 liike tatt bahhx.. jiiu gO yvOnne de calss cox my class startt att 10 mahhxz.. lol`ss.. sitt nextt besiide yvonne.. teacher will takeiing addendance tthan miie jiiu hiide lOrxz cox weii kean sayy so de mahhxz.. lol`ss. haahaa`` seeeiing ye zhii att class he iis sO quiett..!! lol`ss.. look att hiim awhiile jiiu fall sleepii lehhxz haahaa``.. after awhiile wo jiiu wake up lehhxz cox de class will tOo noiise.. heehee``.. tthan jiiu gO canteen lehhxz.. waiitiing for my baObeiix ah ma and yan liing tO cOme down.. gO buyy driink and tthiink eatt.. awhiile theyy jiiu come down lehhxz.. =)
tthan sit wiith brenson, jiia jun and anna.. talk talk.. lOve jaii jun de bearr bearr alOtt.. de bearr bearr will realii cutte.. cute until wanna tO take hOme.. bleahhx.. butt he don lett =( stupiid brenson keep sayyiing ii bully hiim.. diiao lorxz.. iis he bully miie than he sayy ii bully hiim.. haiixz.. lol`ss.. haahaa
around 10 liike ttat they gO for they P.E ii gO for my class.. haahaa`` go to class take addendance jiiu go lehhxz.. bleahhx.. ttahn gO weattmall wiith xiiao zhu ][denniis][ and he frenxii haii you yvonne.. bleahhx... tthan dOnnO wadd happen xiiao zhu jiiu run back tO schh.. he tell miie tatt he frenxii kanna beatt by ppl.. diiaO lorxz.. tthan miie, yvonne and he frenxii oso run gO fiind hiim cox he donno run untiil where.. abiit worrii abOuutt hiim lol`ss.. butt see hiim will he frenxi tthan miie and yvonne go back to sch Lorxz..
ermmm dOn wanna to wriite anymore.. stop here bahhxz.. lol`ss.. kkxkkz..
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12:31 AM
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9:43 PM
..*L0ve*..
if you love someone, let them go.
If they return to you, it was meant to be.
If they don't, their love was never yours tobegin with...
a great love is when you shed tearsand still cares for her/his & still longs forher,
she/he begins to love another and yetyou still smile and say
" I'm happy foryou " (:
the worst thing in the world isseeing the one you love with the onethey love.
you always leave the ones who leavesyou and leaves the one who loves you.
loving is not how you forget but how you forgive, not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on.
a guy and a girl can be just friends ,but..
at one point or another , one of them will fall for the other ,
maybe temporary ,
maybe at wrong time ,
maybe too late , maybe ..
Just maybe... forever...
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6:56 PM
haiixz justt wake upp.. att my cOusiin hOuse nOw.. cox yesterday go outt untiil verii later jiiu go he house sleepii onedayy lOrxz.. haiixz hen siian arrhhxz...
dOn askk miie wadd happen.. ii oso wanna to tell euu all butt promiise lehhxz cannott tell lehhxz.. ii oso wann to share wiith someone cox ii realii can'tt take itt anymore.. wadd should ii do.. =( *sOb sOb* realii scare and worrii.. scare she leave miie worri tatt she don wan us anymOre.. haiixz..!!
tthiink zii jiian won'tt take euu justt liike tatt de bahhxz.. ta bu shii jiiang wu qii de ren.. yii diing bu huii you shii de..!!
nii sayy don wanna to tell us iis becox nii see us cryy huii xiin dong butt we see euu liike tatt, all keep to urself wo men ye huii xiin tong de..!! =(
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12:23 PM
haiixz... feell sadd, wOrrii and scare.!! wadd should ii dO tO help her..?? =( baObeiix ah ma ][sii huii][ hOpe nItthiink happen tO her.. zhen de hen pa.. euu sayy won'tt leave miie alOne de hOr.. iif euu break promiise mustt make 100bottle de star for miie hOr.. =)
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nO matter wadd happen ii will be there fOr euu de.. =( *sOb sOb* dOn wanna tO lOstt euu.. ][wO men haii yaO yii qii siiaO, yii qii gu, haii you yaO yii beii zii zaii yii qii de hOr..][ zhU zhii jiia will waiit for euu tO come back de..!! sO dOn justt leave us liike tatt.. plz ii beg euu.. *sOb sOb* 2molo when nii back for there call miie hOr.. =( dOn lett us wOrrii abOutt euu.. miiss euu de jOssiirlyn.. muackxx
hOpe nOtthiink will happen!!
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7:09 PM
haiixz... tOdayy know sometthiink ii dOn wiish tO know.. haiixz wO bu xiiaO xiin tiing daO de.. whyy mustt tthiis happen tO miie..? why am ii o way de unluckly wan..!! whhY whhY whhY..!! iit sO unfair.. ii hate my liife.. ii realii hate iitt.!!! haiixz.. =( dOn fOrce miie.. ii realii dOnnO...!! nO one realii understand miie.. all of euu are justt fOrceiing miie..!! *sad sad* =( can giive miie some tiime...!! ii will knOw de ans..!! plz stop fOrceiing miie..!!
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11:02 PM
hellO.. jOsiirlyn here.. lol`ss.. ermm nOw att class haii hen siian arrhhxz.. dOnnO wadd tO dO jiiu blog lOrxz.. heehee``.. bleahhx.. oso verii tried.. 6.30 jiiu wake up lehhxz.. reachh sch aroudd 7.sOmetthiink jiiu siit att canteer there lOrxz.. ah ma jiiu yaO chii jiiu peii ta chii.. butt wO meii you chii wan cOx sO early chii bu wan.. =P
8.15 lehhxz ah ma haii you mummy yaO gO class lehhxz.. tthan yvonne weii kean oso gO.. wen jiie chee han ye yaO gO.. haiixz.. onlii miie and miiaO miiaO lehhxz.. jiiu talk talk lOrxz listen MP3... heehee``..
ah ma and mummy cOme liiaO haahaa`` xiiaO shii ren lehhxz.. ah ma yaO bite miie ke shii bit bu daO.. biian chen wO biite her.. heehee.. stupiid you chaO de ah ma.. lol`ss.. ta men gO back class lehhxz...
aroundd 11sOmetthiink jiiu see ][kiim peng, brenson, yiing jun, jiia jun haii you melive][ haiixz qii shii ren lehhxz.. wO onlii sayy them tthan stupiid brenson jiiu break my fiinger naiil.. omg hen tong arrhhxz.. =( wO jiiu walk awayy lOrxz.. after ahwiile kiim peng jiiu msg wO.. butt meii you reply hiim... dOn frenii them lehhxz.. lol`ss.. jkjk.. tthiink ii still small mehhxz.. suan lehhxz break oso break wadd tO dO.. =) sOmemore ii oso nOtt so xiiaO qii de.. haahaa``..
ermm stop here lehhxz.. reachh home tthan wriite bahhx.. bleahhx.. bb.. dOn miiss miie wOr...
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12:58 PM
zZzz.. triied.. justt reachh hOmw nOtt lOng.. 2dayy ][wen jiie, kenny, weii kean, sam daddy, yan liing, miiaO miiaO, hiit wee, beranrd, weii liiang and miie][ when tO red hill... reachh there around 2sOmetthiink lehhxz.. cOx we take wrOng buss.. lol`ss...
after tatt jiiu take bus tO sOme wayy near de MRT there take MRT gO AMK... when we iinsiide de bus see 2bOii aroundd 18 liike tatt de.. jiiu askk miiaO miiaO seee shuaii mahhxz.. haahaa... 1weariing black 1weariing brown t-shite.. miiaO miiaO sayy de wan weariing black de shuaii butt ii dOn tthiink sO wOrr.. lol`ss... bleahhx..
reachh AMK around 5sometthiink lehhxz... tthan gO there de fun land playy pOol.. wa you hen duO shuaii ge.. haahaa`` oso never take a real lOok att them cOx dOn liike ah beng jiiu never care sO muchh lOrxz.. =) bleahhx.. everiitiime gO outt wiith miiaO miiaO yii diing huii kan shuaii ge de.. haahaa``...
after awhiile hiit wee jiiu gO hOme lehhxz.. =P tthan theyy keep on playyiing they pOol.. untiil 7sometthiink jiiu gO offf lehhxz.. playy 2hr lehhxz.. siian liiaO... tthan miiaO miiaO, yan liing, sam daddy haii you weii liiang jiiu stayy iinsiide de fun land dOnnO playy wadd game.. miie, wen jiie, kenny jiiu gO MRT there meet lewis..
after tatt theyy peii weii kean gO take payy.. miie jiiu gO meet my frenxii lOrxz... cOx he briithdayy mahhxz.. =) oso never giive hiim tthiink.. lol`ss.. ermmm tthiink ii stop here lehhxz.. verii triied lehhxz.. kkxkkz.. niittex niittex... takecare..
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12:24 AM
gOod monriing..!! justt wake up.. still verii triied.. lol`ss.. frexnii call miie sayy gOiing outt later.. diiaO sO earlyy call miie =) haahaa``..
haiixz oso nOtthiink muchh tO wriite.. =P stop here lehhxz.. when ii reachh hOme tOniite tthan wriite bahhxz... =)
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8:50 AM
hiihii... bolg agaiin... lol`ss... ermmm 2dayy gO schh awhiile jiiu gO hOme lehhxz.. oso never gO class... haiixz... xiin qii bu haO... =(
reachh schh lehhx.. jiiu siit att canteen tthan wen jiie theyy all jiiu come wanna to sit wiith miie butt ii askk them to go awayy cOx bu xiiang talk... liisten to MP3 tthiink of sometthiink donnO whyy feel liike cryy.. jiiu cryy lehhxz.. =( haiixz hen fan arrhxz.. dOn feel liike studyy lehhxz.. haiixz.. siian arrhhxz.. iif never go tO de stupiid ITE jiiu bu huii sO fan lehhxz.. =(
dOnnO whyy de riian become so biig lehhxz.. jiiu siit near de riian there butt never liing daO yu.. weii kean and he frenxii jiiu come liiaO.. talk tO miie askk miie wadd happen... askk them tO gO awayy butt theyy never gO... jiiu don care aboutt them lOrxz...
after awhiile frenxii jiiu msg miie askk miie dOn cryy lehhxz.. oso dOnnO hOw cOme he knOw de.. askk hiim he dOn wan tO sayy...
weii kean class de shuaii ge cOme lehhxz.. he smile att miie dOnnO whyy feel better lehhxz... lol`s.. tthan he siit besiide miie.. =) weii kean jiiu sayy someone come miie jiiu huii smiile haahaa``...
around 10 lehhxz theyy askk miie tO gO back class.. bu xiiang gO.. jiiu gO wen jiie de class outt siide.. talk talk talk jiiu bu yaO gO class feel liike gOiing hOme... jiiu call my teacher sayy ii never go lehhx.. jiiu go back canteen.. wen jiie jiiu gO eatt.. talk wiith weii kean wen jiie haii you yvonne.. aroundd 11sometthiink jiiu gO take MRT lehhx...
tthan weii keann class de shuaii ge oso gOiing tO take MRT weuu kean jiiu askk hiim tO waiit.. lol`ss.. stupiid weii kean keep askk hiim tO walk besiide miie... haahaa``... gOiing iin de MRT lehhx all siit togetther askk miie tO sit wiith hiim.. diiaO.. tthan miie jiiu sayy othersiide lOrxz... dOnno whyy de shuaii ge siit besiide miie lol`ss.. miie jiiu talk tO hiim lOrxz.. iif nOtt siit there never talk liike guaii guaii de.. =)
reachh he home there lehhxz he gOiing down liiaO.. jiiu gO siit wiith wen jiie theyy all lOrxz.. ermmm tthiink ii stOp here lehhxz.. wanna tO see VCD lehhxz.. takecare...
shawn tthank euu verii de muchh... smiile =) butt hOw come euu will knOw de..? lol`ss... anywayy take care..
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11:46 PM
hellO.. lOng tiimg never bolg lehhxz... miiss miie nott..??? lol`s...
ermm startt schh lehhxz... siian arrhhxz... cannOtt gO outt lehhxz... sadd sadd sadd =(..
dOn feel liike gOiing tO sch amymore dOnnO whyy so...
haiixz tOdayy wake upp att 6.30a.m.. sO de triied.. justt gO bath.. 6.50a.m jiiu gO ouott of my hOuse lehhxz.. gOiing tO be late agaiin.. hehex..
reachh schh arOundd 7.sOmetthiink ba... jiiu gO canteen siit lOrxz... see de shuaii ge de cOmiice... lol`s.. zhen de hen haO kan lOrxz... de ][LING][ zhen de hen shauui arrhhxz.. lol`s.. bu yaO talk abOutt tthiis lehhxz... ermm 10 lehhxz jiiu gO back class wanna take bOok from lOcker butt ii fOrgett de PW lehhx.. omg.. =.=" no need tO studyy lehhxz...
jiiu call keviin askk hiim cOz de lock iis hiim de mahhx.. tthan he oso fOrgett realii siiaO lehhx..
he jiiu cOme help miie open... askk miie tO kiiss hiim tthan ta jiiu huii rememeber lehhxz.. =.=" diiaO lOrxz..tthan he jiiu kiick omg de locker door de tthiink come outt lehhxz..
bO biian jiiu yaO use he locker lehhxz.. stupiid keviin..
ermm stOp here lehhxz.. gO washh my eye.. verii piian... niittex niittex... sleepii early wOr...
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10:26 PM